Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Just wanna share my thoughts...

I had a tiring day, but it was great. Today was Nathan's 1st b-day, baby of my friend Stella. I was happy to see that Nate is now very handsome and looks exactly like his mommy. I even told Stella that Nate is her carbon copy, her boy version.

While looking at them during the party, I couldn't help but think about my Baby Guian. I become more excited to see my baby, and hold him for the first time. Actually, I'm still not sure if he's really a boy, but I'm hoping and praying that he would be. Two weeks from now, I'll be having my ultrasound, and I can't wait to know if he is a he or she is a she. If ever she's a girl, I don't have a name in mind yet. Maybe you guys out there can give me a suggestion...

I talked to my baby's Papa a while ago, and I was happy to read his message saying "love you baby". The past months, I already accepted that we mean nothing to him already. But reading these words from him a while ago, of course I felt happy because in spite of what happened to us, I still want my baby to be loved by his father. I already come into terms that I never really won his love in spite of the love, care, support, and understanding that I gave him. My only concern now is the welfare of my baby...I'm glad to know that he has dreams for Guian. as for me, I know the best is yet to come and God's purpose why He let us break-up will be revealed in time.

Three more months of waiting...But this won't be too long because time flies so fast. See, it's almost end of July again, and once Ber month comes, we'll hardly notice that the year is soon to end. But before it ends, I'll be a proud Mommy again because I chose to give my Baby Guian the greatest gift of all - THE GIFT OF LIFE!